Wednesday, November 22, 2017


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Eventually, we'll withdraw from
each other,
distance will drive a ridge
between us and no amount of
bridges can bring back what's lost,
for what's lost remains lost,
the traces of our presence will
there will be faint reminders when
we walk past the coffee shops we've
been to
or the places we've watched distasteful
movies at,
the aroma of freshly-baked bread and morning coffee
will be replaced with pungent odours of sulphur and past,
and eventually, someday, we'll lose each other,
we'll drift apart,
just like the clouds do before
a clear sky.

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Saturday, November 18, 2017

Waking up in Binsar.

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“I am not the same having seen the moon shine on the other side of the world.” ― Mary Anne Radmacher

My first solo trip was garnished with commute delays, grim uncertainties, and pleasant surprises. The beginnings and the first steps, I believe, are always the toughest. They are probably built on a foundation that might break with the slightest of trepidation. But I pushed my apprehensions and fears into the corner of my mind (only after a few friends forced me to), packed my bags with notebooks and anticipation of adventures and discoveries.

Saturday, November 04, 2017

Stuff I'm dealing with - a personal essay.

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Stress finds you in the middle of the night, knocks at your window, drags you out of the bed to make you act on the plans that haven't panned out yet. To sum it up, my past week was hectic, annoying, and stressful. I'm going on a retreat in less than two days, and I haven't even gotten to the bottom of my packing so far. People who know me well know that I hate putting these things off until the end; I always like to plan ahead, act ahead, and enter into a calm zen-like mode.

This takes me back to the time I was in college. I was the kid that made notes in the class and went through whatever the professor taught for the day so that the study material never piles up during the examination. You might think what a foresight for a teenager, but I assure you it was more of rescuing myself from my nemesis, the last minute panic. My best friend, Anirudh, would often get vexed with my fixation of making plans much in advance. As a matter of fact, he survived it with a fortitude until he fled the country in search of greener pastures. Now, I'm sure there are others who get pissed at me for my inane (and maybe innate) desire to make a well-laid out plan...even for a weekend meetup. See the problem lies in the fact that I want to be best prepared for all the battles because I hate surprises. Unless they come in purple Steve Madden boxes, of course. Which by all means, you're welcome to usher me with.

With a certain amount of difficulty, I'll bring you back to the present. I am taking a trip, peeps. Which might not excite you as much as it excites me. I'll spare you the details. At least to the point where I find something good enough to make you go red (or green) with envy.

As of now, I'm trying to cut through the chaos and clutter to get set for the upcoming week although all I'm doing is sitting in the corner and weeping. Much like the ado over the spilt milk, I'm mourning the time gone by.

P.S. I hope you're all having a great weekend. While you're at it, I'll go do my chores, write a story, and dream of La La Land.

Here's a song for you, though:

Wednesday, November 01, 2017


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Do you have anything new to tell me? About the weather, the sandwich you made this morning or the flowers in your courtyard? I know we've told each other a lot of things - some interesting, some not, some vile, some not, some out of love, and some not. See the thing is, I've heard a lot of things from you and all of them are leading a life of glorified death now. They don't deserve that, you know? The glory, I mean. So, tell me, do you have anything new? Have your words reformed? If no, then please keep them to yourself. I'm not interested. I guess I'll never be interested again.

Monday, October 30, 2017

The shape.

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I've changed the shape of
my heart
far too many times to fit it
in your palms
like how black coffee
twirls and whirls
in cups and mugs
of different shapes and textures,
each time with a new form,
each time with a new aroma,
and yet

Sunday, October 29, 2017

I'm here.

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Paint me in the hues of warmth,
swallow me like the Sun would
consume the Moon,
hold on to me like the sea does to
the shore,
trying hard to take everything the shore
has yet failing incorrigibly,
caress me like the Spring touches
the cherry trees,
the point is, I'm here for falling
and rising and lacking and
the point is, I'm here for the

Tuesday, October 24, 2017


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I loved you
to the
point of vanity,
breaking the
thresholds of all
floodgates and inhibitions,
and now,
it refuses
to relinquish,
it merely and starkly

Sunday, October 22, 2017

Just this.

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Hold me in your arms
I'll not ask for much,
maybe a whisper or two,
and your voice doing that
thing it does to my ears,
it'll dawn on us in a
few hours,
you'll forget the last night
and the time we spent
counting the stars,
the bright Sun will send
its wishes through rays
on your cheeks,
so, please,
hold me in your arms
I'll not ask for much,
just this.

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Totally Psyched.

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Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Labels and names.

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"It's getting dark. I should probably leave."
"No, don't. Stay."
"I need to get home."
"We can order pizza."
"I have to leave."
"With your favourite toppings."
"Please, you need to understand."
"I won't stop you from eating it with ketchup."
"It's over."
"What's over?"
"What us?"
"You know what I mean, whatever's between us."
"What do you mean?"
"We cannot do this any longer."
"I don't get it."
"Of course you do! You're just feigning ignorance."
"Is that so?"
"One pizza won't hurt."
"You know we won't stop with the pizza. We'll hurt each other. That's what we do. That's what we always do. Eating a pizza or doing anything for that matter never remain as a simple task of doing."
"What then?"
"I want to know where you're going with this."
"I'm telling you we'll hurt each other. That's what we do."
"Nonono...that's what you do. That's what you always do. You always have this vapid urge to run from everything you feel strongly about. It's what you do. You drop things cold, mid-way and never look back."
"I'm just not looking for someone I can emotionally invest in."
"But do you ever?"
"It doesn't matter.
"It does. At least to me."
"I don't know why we have to run in circles about everything we do. Do you derive some kind of fun from this?"
"I just want to know."
"Know what?"
"What we were."
"Some kind of an unfinished business."
"Is that it?"
"Yeah, not everything needs labels and names, you know?"

Monday, October 16, 2017

First home.

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I wanted to name our first home
after us,
after our love,
luckily for me,
I had several options to pick from,
ugh...where do I begin?
what do you think of naming it
as 'erratic'?
or do you like the sound of
because we won't be the first in
the history of having a
wrecked home,
but then, what about 'pensive'?
I like pensive,
it sounds chic,
what do you think?
you don't have to make a choice
right away,
no, really,
there are more names I could
I can find better nouns
and adjectives,
but let me warn you,
nothing might sound
more right than

Sunday, October 15, 2017

There's nothing.

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I've been writing for days
about you
about us
about everything I struggled
to say
hoping my words will
move you
because I've heard that
words can melt rocks and hills
but after all these days
I realize
there's nothing that can truly
make you listen
to me,
there's nothing
and now, I am out of
words too,
I've nothing left to

Saturday, October 14, 2017

I always thought.

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I always thought
we could wade through the storms,
walk through the grime,
get our hands dirty
to create beauty in the dark,
I always thought
we could spark lights
with stones in the woods,
craft our own happiness
through make-believe stories
we tell to ourselves
whenever we are bogged down,
I always thought
we'd never bow down
to the demands of what doesn't
and to the whims of what's judged
as right by others,
I always thought
we'd break free from our shackles,
walk free without hassles,
now it makes me wonder,
when did we stop a little bit of
dreaming and wandering?
when did we start surrendering?

Thursday, October 12, 2017


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Our love bathed and drowned
in the metaphors of
it shone in the dark even with
a lifespan so


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