The shape.

I've changed the shape of

my heart

far too many times to fit it

in your palms

like how black coffee

twirls and whirls

in cups and mugs

of different shapes and textures,

each time with a new form,

each time with a new aroma,

and yet

remains

strong.

Tune for the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=erywPdFfORE

I'm here.

Paint me in the hues of warmth,

swallow me like the Sun would

consume the Moon,

hold on to me like the sea does to

the shore,

trying hard to take everything the shore

has yet failing incorrigibly,

caress me like the Spring touches

the cherry trees,

the point is, I'm here for falling

and rising and lacking and

wanting,

the point is, I'm here for the

misery.

Tune for the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=52FBvP7z2LU

Relinquish.

I loved you

to the

point of vanity,

breaking the

thresholds of all

floodgates and inhibitions,

and now,

it refuses

to relinquish,

it merely and starkly

refuses.

Tune for the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4V3Mo61fJM

Just this.

Hold me in your arms

tonight,

I'll not ask for much,

maybe a whisper or two,

and your voice doing that

thing it does to my ears,

it'll dawn on us in a

few hours,

you'll forget the last night

and the time we spent

counting the stars,

the bright Sun will send

its wishes through rays

on your cheeks,

so, please,

hold me in your arms

tonight,

I'll not ask for much,

just this.

Tune for the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bx1Bh8ZvH84

Totally Psyched.

Labels and names.

"It's getting dark. I should probably leave."

"No, don't. Stay."

"I need to get home."

"We can order pizza."

"I have to leave."

"With your favourite toppings."

"Please, you need to understand."

"I won't stop you from eating it with ketchup."

"It's over."

"What's over?"

"Us."

"What us?"

"You know what I mean, whatever's between us."

"What do you mean?"

"We cannot do this any longer."

"I don't get it."

"Of course you do! You're just feigning ignorance."

"Is that so?"

"Yeah."

"One pizza won't hurt."

"You know we won't stop with the pizza. We'll hurt each other. That's what we do. That's what we always do. Eating a pizza or doing anything for that matter never remain as a simple task of doing."

"Then?"

"What then?"

"I want to know where you're going with this."

"I'm telling you we'll hurt each other. That's what we do."

"Nonono...that's what you do. That's what you always do. You always have this vapid urge to run from everything you feel strongly about. It's what you do. You drop things cold, mid-way and never look back."

"I'm just not looking for someone I can emotionally invest in."

"But do you ever?"

"It doesn't matter.

"It does. At least to me."

"I don't know why we have to run in circles about everything we do. Do you derive some kind of fun from this?"

"I just want to know."

"Know what?"

"What we were."

"Some kind of an unfinished business."

"Is that it?"

"Yeah, not everything needs labels and names, you know?"

Tune for the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzQ9VrnNQLQ

First home.

I wanted to name our first home

after us,

after our love,

luckily for me,

I had several options to pick from,

ugh...where do I begin?

what do you think of naming it

as 'erratic'?

or do you like the sound of

'wrecked'?

because we won't be the first in

the history of having a

wrecked home,

but then, what about 'pensive'?

I like pensive,

it sounds chic,

what do you think?

you don't have to make a choice

right away,

no, really,

there are more names I could

offer,

I can find better nouns

and adjectives,

but let me warn you,

nothing might sound

more right than

'bygone'.

Tune for the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FnzHOsiaJns